Episode Report Card Jessica: B+ | Grade It Now! YOU GRADE IT Love Bites
By Jessica | Season 6 | Episode 18 | Aired on 04.08.2003
Grams's. She sits on the sofa knitting. Jen skips into the room holding the phone, and chirps that Grams just got a call from the doctor's office, confirming her appointment. Grams sort of nods, and Jen settles down on top of the coffee table. She giggles that she's never heard from that particular doctor and she knows something is going on with Grams and she demands to know what it is! Jen? If it's a doctor's office, it's probably not good news, so stop chortling. She tells Grams that she needs to "come clean for the common good." Grams gives her a long, appraising look and finally gives in. She has breast cancer, and it's spread beyond the point where surgery would be effective. Jen's eyes just fill with tears. And, I have to admit it, so do mine. Oh, Grams. Grams just nods smartly, like, "Are you happy now?" Jen just blanches. "Are you talking about breast cancer? Oh my God," she breathes. "Yes," Grams says shortly, and then asks Jen to go turn down the oven. "Now, please, just go," she says. Jen can't move. She just squinches up her face and tries not to cry as Grams flounces off to rescue her pie crust.
Joey steps outside the gymnasium to find Pacey standing on the porch. She examines his wounds, as he smiles down at her and tells her that the evening was "quite nice." Joey agrees, saying that "it's been a perfect night." She looks up at him, so sadly. "I can't do this," she tells him. Pacey doesn't get it. "Even when everything is perfect, being with you doesn't feel right. And I'm sorry," Joey tells him. Argh. Oh, God. I'm having chest pains. Pacey just looks broken. "Everything tonight…" Joey begins, awkwardly. "Tonight was lovely and fun and you've become this amazing man, but it doesn't…I'm sorry. I don't…I don't feel it. And I can't do this with you," she says. Pacey gulps and asks her to please just slow down for a second. "No, Pacey, it's true," Joey tells him, very sadly. "I'm sorry." Pacey quickly assures her that she's just scared, and says that he is too. "I think it could go anywhere," he says, "this could be it." He sounds so sad and so hopeful at the same time. "It won't be," Joey tells him softly. "How could you possibly know that," Pacey asks, with tears in his voice. "I mean, last week you're on board and now…" He goes on to plead that she can't possibly know this won't turn into something wonderful. But Joey tells him that she does know, and she's so, so sorry. "But how?" Pacey asks her. Oh, God. This is so sad. They are acting the hell out of this scene.
"And when did you make this decision, tonight?" he asks, going to on to tell her again that he knows she's just scared. "I've known you for too long and I've seen you push away too many good things to let you push me away right now," he tells her. Oh, sniffle. Sniffle. "Joey, my whole life, you have been the most beautiful thing in my orbit and my feelings for you were what proved to me that I could be great. And those feelings were stronger and wiser and more persistent and more resilient that anything else about me," he tells her. Joey tries to interrupt, but Pacey won't let her. "No. When I was afraid of everything, I was never afraid to love you and I could love you again. I could," he tells her. Finally, Joey can't take it. She yells at him to stop, albeit not unkindly. "[Oliver] came back," she whispers, and Pacey just goes green. He says nothing. "I'm sorry," she says. "He came back last night. He came to the bar." She looks up at him pleadingly. "Oh. Okay," Pacey says, and just walks away silently. Joey watches him go, sadly. Oh, God. My heart is in a thousand pieces right now. I have to say, that scene was great. I mean, it really made me horribly sad and I think Joey is making a huge mistake, but that bit was very well acted by both Josh Jackson and Katie Holmes.